This is a little awkward but here we go, this is a love letter to you because you need to hear this. Society tells us that it is immodest to love yourself and the marketing people of the world don't want you to love yourself but after a really shitty year, let's just go for it.
You have been through so much and I am really proud of you, you battled so hard and I am amazed that you have come through this experience a stronger person. Though at times you are frightened, angry and distressed, you have taken it all on board and made something amazing from a terrible situation. Alhamdulillah !
See the world. Explore cultures. Eat funny-sounding dishes. Experience jet-lag. Get lost in a strange land and find your way back. Just feel exhilarated.
I I Iknow you feel you have to always have a smile on your face, that you created this public face of positivity that sometimes makes it difficult to admit when you are struggling. But you have to learn let yourself be sad, let yourself cry, let yourself be angry.let me tell you , you have inculcated it in yourself for sometime now .
I love that you love your friends, that you care about them and try to be there, your kindness has been repaid 100 times over during your recovery and you are lucky to have such wonderful mates around you. I love that you want everyone to be happy but you know that sometimes you need to take some time for yourself.Don't feel secluded.
You have learnt that you need to look after yourself, that your body is the only place you have to live, that means accepting it's weaknesses and recognising when you need to stop and rest. You realise how important you are, and that you can’t help others if you are broken yourself. So feel happy , spread cheerfulness all around .
It might just be a new word a day or a complete new art. Never stop learning. Just because you are done with your degree doesn't mean you stop learning. Join e-courses or simply learn online. But keep expanding your pool of knowledge
I love that after a long time of feeling that your career path was lost in the woods, that you have cleared the trees and discovered these strengths that you didn't know you had. Your childhood dream of being a writer that you thought was a silly fantasy is coming true through your own hard work and you are carving your own career and making your own opportunities.And the politician dream , if Allah wills that will be done ... Medicine , yes you are taking it easy but a little effort and you will be a star . A lot of effort &you will treat people well with your magic pen and words.
I love that you are silly. That you are ok with playing the fool and know that your laughter is far sexier than any pout.I love that as you grow older and relax more, your humour grows without shame.
I love that you are learning that you can't fix everyone and that sometimes, no matter how hard it feels, you need to cut people from your day to day life who don't bring you anything positive. I love that you are learning that you shouldn't be a doormat and that 'no' is a full sentence.
I love your interests in reading , marketing , drama , composing , making different stuff , food fantasies and whatever else takes your fancy. I love that you like these things despite others mocking you for them. You know your interests should make you happy, not anyone else.
I love that you adore kids. You know you aren't a perfect but you try your best and know that is enough. It's cute to see you relate every naughty thing others kids do to your future and wonder what kind of mum you would make.This has taught you to be more empathetic, caring and open.
You have been rough on yourself but you are learning to be kinder. I know you didn't always feel like you had people to guide you towards making healthy decisions, but that has made you the person you are and I forgive you for all the mistakes you have made along the way.
Take action. If there's something you do not like or someone is doing something wrong in front of you, don't just make a face. Open your mouth and tell them what you think. Voice your opinions.
You often find yourself stuck in a rut, following the same schedule and doing nothing new. Keep challenging yourself. Be it a new job, a new course or just doing something you've always wanted to do, set benchmarks for yourself. And then reward yourself when you achieve them!
You need to live more in the present than in your past or your future. Mistakes happen, let them go. The future is unknown. Worrying about it will only give you wrinkles. Just live in the present and enjoy each moment.
Not a smirk. Not a weak smile. A belly rumbling, body shaking laugh. A laugh that'll leave tears rolling down your eyes and a stitch in your side. Find the humour in life. Stop being so serious all the time. :)
So here we come to the end of this awkward letter of self love, all I can finish with are the words of the great Glory.
Buh bye
Take care love !
you can't fix everyone and that sometimes, no matter how hard it feels, you need to cut people from your day to day life who don't bring you anything positive.
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Thank you so much Fouqia :D !
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